I am surprisingly happy

Yes, you read that right. Happy. I finally see a way through the mess that is my life these days. I am truly working on myself.
I've lost some of the weight that the medication made me put on, so I'm pretty happy about that. My nero can't believe I am so sensitive to this medicine when it takes horse tranqulizers for anesthesia. Rather odd.
I'm still frustrated with my job, but what else is new. I'm trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life (I have some ideas). And..... the icing on the cake... a fabulous trip to San Antonio in a few weeks...
My best friend recently got engaged to a great guy--a Marine of all things. And unfortunately he's getting deployed to Iraq in just a few weeks. Hmm.... I think that's the extent of the updates on me these days...

Seriously ready for warm weather...

I'm ready to move to Phoenix to tell you the truth.... I can't take much more cold!

Check out these pics from inside my house in January.... sorry about the dirty dishes!! :-)

I'm not dead....

Just extremely depressed.
But I'm working on it. At least I have great friends who show me unbelievable support--no matter how crappy a friend I've been.

Another prayer request

I got a text message today from my best friend from college asking if I had had optic nerve swelling from the pseudotumor. Of course I said yes... and she told me that she was told by her optomitrist that her optic nerves were swollen.
They sent her to a neurologist and luckily there is no tumor and no leisons (which could be a sign of MS) on her brain. And thank goodness that she's not in pain and she is having no other vision problems. Just keep her in your prayers too! Thanks!

Toss a few prayers up please...

Yesterday my sister took my 19 year old neice to the hospital because her entire right side had gone numb. She has a 6 month old baby and is stuck in the hospital with a neurologist that we don't trust (unfortunately, he was the doctor on call in the ER). There not sure what is wrong with her... I'm afraid that she's had a stroke on the right side of her brain. She's had a couple of different scans (CT, MRI) and so far they can't see anything for sure. So we're not sure if it's as serious as a stroke or if it is a nerve issue; granted, a nerve issue is serious enough. So, as you're saying your prayers, if you'd toss a few her way, we'd sure appreciate it! Thanks to you all.... and God Bless!
oh, and my neice's name is Stephanie. Thanks!

Happy New Year

Ok, so I have been super bad at posting the last few months and for that I apologize. That's what happens when you're in Finance at the end of the year. It's no fun.
But here we are at the beginning of yet another year. I'm looking forward to it. I'm actually looking forward to the anniversary of my stroke... because it means I'm alive and I've continued to recover well.
I'm looking forward to selling this house (if it ever sells!), because then I'll be able to get the space I so need to sort out my head.
I'm looking forward to a commitment I'm making with myself to get myself in shape. Losing the weight that I must lose in order to safely carry a baby. I'm thinking about getting in touch with the perinatalogist (doctors that specialize in high-risk pregnancies) to see what exactly what I need to do to be in the right condition to have my babies (whenever they come along).
I'm looking forward to getting off of the Plavix (come on MAY!!!) and figuring out a way to get off of all of the other medications. I will not be subjected to take various medications for the rest of my life.
And most of all, I'm looking forward to making my bucket list. There is a church here in town that has the following statement on their sign--"The Bucket List (don't waste your life)." And no, I've never seen the movie, but I know what a bucket list is.... And I'm sure my list will be a long time coming, but it will get written. And then I will start doing it.
First things first.... get out of debt.... figure out my relationship....

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year's!

Shopping..

Ok, so I don't do the "Black Friday" shopping. And this year was a perfect example why... a poor guy at Wal-Mart was trampled. Holy cow! For what I ask? To find a few deals? I think not.

But, I'll get off of that soapbox. I'm quite frustrated about it altogether. But anyway. I went shopping on Saturday with my best friend. I introduced her to a new store, a discount department store (kind of like TJ Maxx or Marshalls). She had never been there before and she was totally enthralled. Now, I am so anti-girl in the following statement... I hate to shop. When I get in the mood, it's fine. But in general, I truly detest it. Now, maybe if I were a size 2 and could find all the clothes I wanted I wouldn't have this problem, but since I am not a size 2, I don't enjoy it. Anyway. I took her shopping at this store. Now, when I first discovered this store, I was also very excited, because I bought a ton of clothes for next to nothing. However, never have I ever spent 3 HOURS in a single store at one time! 3 Hours!!!! I was ready to keel over by the time she was finally finished! I mean, I'm ok for about an hour... but 3?

Ok, girls... I know, I'm completely not girly am I? I'm missing a gene or something! First my husband can't deal with the fact that I'm not a "lovey dovey" person. I don't want to sit around staring into someone's eyes when there are other things to be done. I'm not one to cuddle... it irritates me. See, I'm missing some essential girl genes!!